Thursday, December 29, 2011

good morning!

Golly, where have I been?  I just found the work of Kelsey Garrity-Riley (via where the lovely things are), and I've fallen hard.  Not only does she illustrate in a manner that makes me swoon, but look at the dolls!


I think I might just die.  That face, those little legs!  Head on over to her blog and etsy shop for lots more loveliness.  I mean, really

Later, 'gators.

xoxox.

Wednesday, December 28, 2011

love it, every bit

Oh, what fun!  Sweet, sweet Deb of Kickcan & Conkers, one of the best blogs around for all manner of wonderful, stylish and relevant things for kids (and me) has opened her shop!  Just a few of the wonderful finds over there at the moment:





Love it, every bit!  I've gravitated to the red and black, of course (with a kitty thrown in for good measure), but there's lots to see, and Deb keeps it updated daily.  Wonderful finds from all over Europe and beyond--quite a treat, if you ask me!

Happy window shopping, sweet friends.

xoxox.

Monday, December 26, 2011

stay

(so beautiful.  via.)

Hello, all!

I hope, truly, that your holidays are being lovely. I've been able to enjoy some time off (the benefit of being a teacher!) and in doing so, find I'm feeling a bit more like my old self again.


That can only mean one thing:  I've been thinking.

I finished this amazing book, and this amazing book (again), and then this amazing book.  And I'm realizing how very, very important it is...to stay.  To stay with our loved ones, to stay in the scary or painful moment, to stay in the tired and boring and dirty bits of life.  To not run, in one way or another, to a place where we can attempt to feel nothing.  For one thing, obviously, these types of moments far outnumber the prototypically joyful, beautiful, neat moments by far.  So if we were to run from them, we'd be running an awful lot of our lives.  More importantly, I realized from all my reading that these are the moments when love and growth and real healing happen.  If we're honest with ourselves when we're struggling, we can grow emotionally and spiritually as human beings, here to help one another.

Most of my problems in the past came from not wanting to stay.  And I say this as a very unadventurous person:  I almost never travel, have never left the states, have been married for 20 years with no plans to leave ever, I am and always have been a really good and present mom, I don't really enjoy new things and I will fight change with every bit of my being.  But not staying doesn't have to be physical--it can be emotional, too.  I can not stay by going shopping on the computer.  I can not stay by pouring a glass of wine.  I can not stay by holing myself up in my room with a really good book when my children or husband want to spend time with me.  I can not stay by eating another brownie, or two or three.  And I can not stay by going to bed at 8:00 in the evening and sleeping for 12 hours.  (I'm not saying that any or all of these things are not fine now and again, but you know and I know when we're running away.  We just do.)

Boredom, fear, pain, fatigue, anger and annoyance.  All things we feel when we are with other people, a great deal of the time.  Not just our families, but everyone, everywhere, all the time.  At the post office, at the stoplight, at work and at home.  So if this is the way it is, what can that tell us?  Is life supposed to be annoying 95% of the time?  Really?  Is this it?

I don't think so.  I think that these moments are teachers, and that we had better take good notes and learn the lesson.  It's about us, not them, and staying present with these moments in a non-judgmental way is the only path out.  When we are annoyed, we are upset because we aren't coming first for some reason.  But who ever said we would, or even should?  I don't remember getting that memo:  "Dear Amy, you are the most important person in the world.  You should be at the head of every line, have the least amount of trouble and pain, and never, ever have to suffer anyone you deem to be less savvy than you.  Amen."  Nope.  I believe the wording was actually something along the lines of "Love one another and don't be mean and selfish."  Or something.

But let's be honest:  why else are we here?  What else would be our purpose in life, really?  We are placed, somehow, on this earth together.  And it is only together that we will find a way out of the scary bits.  We are meant to be here for each other, through words and actions.  Not to run, but to be there, in the boring, messy moments.  And to work through them, to help each other, and that helps us.

So that's my resolution for 2012.  To stay.  And love.  And maybe even help to heal a tiny bit of the world by doing that.  I can hope.

Blessings to you!

xoxox.

Sunday, December 18, 2011

wish-list

Morning, sweets!

 
These little dolls from the fabulously talented Lisa Aaron of lou lou & oscar have me all a-smile...you, too?

If she ever puts one in her shop, I'm going to be the first one in line to adopt...Some things are just like that, you know?--no questions asked!  Lisa's work has been a favorite of mine for years and never fails to delight.  Her work is always, always original and fresh and lovely.  Go see!

May your Sunday be filled with smells of baking and good books and laughter.  (Only if you like that sort of thing, of course...;o)

xoxox.

Thursday, December 15, 2011

little house revisited

Hi, all!

Ma and Pa Ingalls by Uneek Doll Designs

One of my favorite parts of our day, when time permits, is when Sofie and I read out loud from the Little House on the Prairie series by Laura Ingalls Wilder.  Usually I read to her, but sometimes she takes the reins, and it's always wonderful.

Little House on the Prairie Literary Soap Club Gift Set by haldecraft

I read these books as a child, of course, and loved them to bits.  But experiencing them as an adult is 100 times better.  They are amazingly well-written, funny and wise.  And Laura:  she's a little spitfire, real and vibrant and so, so relatable for my Sofie.  While her sister Mary is always good, Laura struggles to do the right thing, and is always right in the middle of the action.  I missed so much as a child, but reading it again with my daughter has been a delight, and we've created a shared language based on lines from the book that we laugh about at least once a day.

Totally AWESOME "What Would Charles Ingalls Do?" mug from kngo

Laura Ingalls Wilder locket necklace from Jtaime Boutique

 sweetest girl's pioneer dress from taylors scarlet thread

Tonight, Sofie allowed me to tape her reading one of her favorite sections from the first book, Little House in the Big Woods.  (Laura and her family have travelled to Grandpa's house deep in the Big Woods for a dance.  All the families for miles around come to be together on a cold winter's night.) 

Here she is, with substantial help from our silly, silly cat, reading her favorite bit:


Hope you enjoy!  Cheers...

xoxox.

Monday, December 12, 2011

tea = hope

I've been a lifelong coffee lover (well, almost), but lately I'm coming around to this point of view.  There's something so much gentler about tea, no?
Available from lovely sweet william, along with lots of other beautiful items.  You know me and hope, we've a on-again, off-again relationship.  Ask me tomorrow, perhaps?

Hope you're well.

xoxox.

Sunday, December 11, 2011

remember the cardinal

My, oh my.  Time does fly, especially this time of year.  I wonder why I keep adding moving to everything else that happens during the holidays?  Next year, I'm gonna cut that out.

But things around here are coming together, very slowly.  Still quite humble, decor-wise, but we do love it.  (Humble is the new chic, I keep telling myself.)

So I saw this kind of framed-number thing in a magazine (which I tried to save in order to show you the inspiration, but it's gone forever).  It was like this, but fewer numbers because they were bigger.  And I just really loved it.  Then I saw these red plastic numbers for sale on etsy, and I snapped 'em up, knowing just what I wanted to do.  Backed with linen burlap and framed in a $14 frame, I'm pretty happy with it.  The numbers are arranged to represent the girls' birthdays and our anniversary.  Plus a six, which is how many we are in the house now that we have a cat.  Ha!

 (I stuck the numbers on to the fabric with some really sticky tape I found at the craft store.  It's behind the red parts, so you can't see it.)

 This is our couch, which is so very ugly that I kind of love it.  We will get it covered when finances allow, but for now, it's good because if someone gets a stain on the gold velvet, who the dickens cares?
 Olivia (my 13-year-old) made this canvas for us.  It's part of an ee cummings poem and she did it with big sharpie permanent markers.  She's so awesome.


 An improvised side-table, next to a chair from Goodwill that is so ugly that it's just ugly, so I'm not going to share it.  :o)




 This (above) is what happens when you hang something by yourself at 10:00 at night.  (Under the tape is a nail, because it kept falling down.)  I don't want to move it, so I'm going to move the bed sometime.  This makes sense to me.
The girls' rooms are very much still under construction, but this canvas is going to be where they can see it every day.
Yoshi continues to find ways to make herself right at home.

That's about it for now, in terms of stuff to show you...I have some time off over the holidays and I hope to finish moving-in then.  Some more stuff on the walls would be good, although I'll try not to get too carried away, as I am wont to do.

***

Yesterday while my mom and I and the girls were looking out the window at a very bleak landscape filled with bare branches and lots of brown and grey, a male cardinal landed in the closest tree.  And then another, and another!  No fewer than eight of them in all, bright red spots of happiness right there in front of us.  We were entranced, this being only our second winter on the east coast.  They stayed and fed for almost twenty minutes, six males and two females, we think.  It was such a gift.

Of course, I looked up the symbolism of cardinals right after that (because that's just the kind of thing I love to think about) and I found this"The cardinal reminds us that passion, warmth and vibrancy are available to us, even under the cloak of winter's grey clouds."  Isn't that wonderful?  It's so perfectly put, I think.  In fact, the other day as I was driving to work and listening to some of my favorite songs, I thought that's what music and literature and nature do for us:  they somehow go below the surface of our everyday lives in order to reveal what is beneath.  And what is beneath--love, seeking, helping, saving, lifting, praying, crying and laughing--that is what is REAL.  Without my books and music and nature (and my loved ones) it would be so very easy to forget this, to forget that under that grey cloak of winter, "passion, warmth and vibrancy" are there, waiting to be discovered. 

Our everyday world can be grey indeed.  We must remember that we are all hurting, seeking and deserving of love, and especailly that love and hope are there waiting for us all the time--we must go deeper and deeper, each of us and every single day, to find what really, truly matters.

Remember the cardinal, won't you?

Blessings, all.

xoxox.

Thursday, December 1, 2011

i still haven't found what i'm looking for

Ahhh.  So much goodness, so much has been learned.  But I'm not done yet--not by the longest shot.

(via)

I  heard this song tonight (below);  it seemed uncannily perfect for me, in my place, at this time.  Watch the video here. (Although, yes, the young U2 is admittedly a bit cheesy, they can still rock my world.)

***

I have climbed the highest mountain
I have run through the fields
Only to be with you
Only to be with you

I have run, I have crawled
I have scaled these city walls
These city walls
Only to be with you

But I still haven't found what I'm looking for
But I still haven't found what I'm looking for

I have kissed honey lips
Felt the healing in her fingertips
It burned like fire
This burning desire

I have spoke with the tongue of angels
I have held the hand of a devil
It was warm in the night
I was cold as a stone

But I still haven't found what I'm looking for
But I still haven't found what I'm looking for

I believe in the kingdom come
Then all the colours will bleed into one
Bleed into one
Well, yes, I'm still running

You broke the bonds and you
Loosed the chains
Carried the cross
Of my shame
All my shame
You know I believe it

But I still haven't found what I'm looking for
But I still haven't found what I'm looking for

***

Nope.  Never done.

xoxox.